in my mind

I'm looking out the window and every where I see snow..

out it's all white,pure,quiet and this placidity involves my heart,but in me there isn't calm but a hell and the snow dissolves.

 "know you've suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied "


i never had a beatiful idea of me,since the high school.I was an atleta:i played tennis for a long time and when my leg was broken I became a swimmer.
I never was so thin,i was muscolar,but I wasn't fat.
My schoolfriend made fun of me and called me caw... I don't know yet the why .
at the last year of school I had a crash with a camion and I stayed in bed for 3 mounths..
when I woke up I so fat: my weight was 85 kg... and everyone looked me with a stange expressione like they wanted say me "oh poor fat girl".
i became anorexic...


sometimes I think that the people are very stupid and with their worlds and gesture they can induce someone to death